I don't think I could ever tire of Anne of Green Gables. I saw it in play form last week NINE times and still love it. I probably love this story so much because growing up in a family of 3 girls, there was plenty of "Anne" types of emotions, imagination and adventures going on between the three of us.
Despite my love for the theater, this play and getting to see my son up on stage enjoying himself, I'm very thankful that we are done. Now we can catch up on our sleep, slow down and just 'be' for a while...
I had to laugh when I discovered an old journal of mine at my parents home yesterday. I found it ironic that in light of Xander's
play last week, Anne of Green Gables, I would re-read this:
Yes, this was a journal entry from my junior high years...
And yes, I've always been a bit dramatic. Like the character, Anne, I can go from the depths of despair, to the height of ecstasy and back to despair in a matter of minutes! Thankfully, age has refined those urges a great deal and at the very least they don't come waltzing out into public very often! ;)
But as I sat and thought about this, I realized that I do still have these thoughts and emotions sometimes.
Bad news, something unexpected, an unmet expectation, a child's temper tantrum and those emotions surge again.
Although I'm not 12 anymore and am usually self-controlled enough to keep them to myself it is still not pleasant. In fact, it can be downright destructive.
A sure-fire cure for feeling in the 'depths of despair' can be found in gratitude. As I thank God for what He has given me - both to have and to do and the work He is doing in and through me, those thoughts of despair are replaced with peace and JOY! I've always known this, but over this last year as I've consistently looked for His blessings in my life, I've found that those feelings of despair come less frequently and they don't stick around because I immediately turn it over to the Lord.
And so I continue to count...
528. Despair replaced with peace and joy
529. Words written by God and the Spirit's draw to read them.
530. Live theater
531. Getting to play with beautiful red hair and help get 'Rachel Lynn' stage ready!
532. the chance for my little guy to participate in his second play.
533. For friends he's made in the process!
534. Getting to hang out with some really neat junior high and highschoolers. (Aside from Xander and his friend Emily, the rest of the cast was older.)
535. Getting to witness their friendliness and enthusiasm towards Xander as well as myself. These kids can interact with anyone, no matter their age.
536. A little boy excited to get roses delivered backstage from his adoring fans, Oma and Opa!
537. A quiet Friday morning to spend walking to the park and just hanging out with my little boys.
538. Friends and family who were so willing to watch the two little one's while I took Xander to his dress rehearsals this week.
539. Sleep. I certainly needed it after a week filled with 4 dress rehearsals and 5 performances.
540. Peace in the midst of unfortunate news that would usually send me into a panic. (See, I told you I'm dramatic. I'm so thankful that He is in the process of changing me!)
541. Getting to hold a new baby today.
542. An email exchange with a friend that got my wheels turning and excited about activities to do with my kids this month!
543. Supernaturally timed answers to prayer!
544. Having my thoughts turned to the mystery and wonder of the Incarnation.
545. The rest of December that is relatively free and unscheduled!